Sun lit mornings.....

 

July 16

Sun lit mornings.....

There is magic when each season spills over

into the next, 

and we are made aware 

of time and its wonder upon earth

9 July 2026 - The loveliness of the heart in the simplest pleasures

"Love is a gift, 

       a teacher of beauty &

grace that changes our lives forever."

Let me introduce you to Janani. 

A beautiful woman dressed in orange, layered cut, and white hanging earrings. 

A smile every now and then. 

She was happy to see me, as I was to see her. 

Janani is the beautician who offerred my tired aching feet a pedicure. Healing hands are indeed a gift of god. 

I asked her, what does she actually like in stones, does she like ruby or pearls or emerald. As i guessed right she liked pearls. 

What's intersting was she was very curious about what I intend to write. 

Interestingly, since she probably was very receptive, i shared my idea of a novel on the theme of 'Wait and Hope'.

As i shared some thoughts on what i intend to write and the plot line of one of my novels. 

The plot like is on the lines, of a woman, who is awaiting her boy friend, only to be told, he has been sentenced to imprisonment. 

She works her way through the investigation, only to uncover a plot line .......

Interestingly as i was speaking to her, I was remembered in Ramayana, Ravana plays a heinous trick on Sita Devi claiming he has, defeated Rama and Rama is no longer alive. He asks her to alight the pushpaka vimana to see for herself. Ravana capable of conjuring up acts of maya, unfolds this scene in front of the eyes of Sita. Sita falls in shock, only to be reconciled later, possibly by Trijatai (Vibhishana's daughter) . 

Vibhishana's daughter, consoles and reassures Sita saying, that only a sumangali (the one who's husband is alive) can alight the pushpaka vimana and indeed Devi Sita is a sumangali. 

So Ravana is playing a trick and it cannot be true....

While I have heard of this story in many upanyasams, recounting this to her, was beautiful. 

She was deeply touched, so was I.....

I also recounted the quote, "Janani Janmabhoomi Swargadapi Gariyasi''.....

जननी जन्मभूमिश्च स्वर्गादपि गरीयसी

The phrase is also the the national motto of the Government of Nepal. 

The phrase traces back to the Hindu epic Ramayana, where Lord Rama speaks it to his brother Lakshmana after conquering Lanka, indicating that even a magnificent, gold-made kingdom cannot outshine the love for one's own motherland..

With that being said, I totally resonate with the modern view on moving outside your homeland to make it.....However I leave that to yet another post, i will soon reflect on....

Janani recounted how she was orphaned at a young age and she grew up in a boarding school. Her marriage was a love marriage. As curious as always i am, i asked , what was the name of her husband, she said 'Ramesh' ...Ah nice, Ram + Janani.... ok nice 

I said that someday, I shall buy for her a pair of pearl bangles. Depply touched though exorbitantly priced, i left the saloon.....

sometimes, every mundane chapter is filled with love in all its charm, if only we are receptive and our heart can listen......

Jai Sita Ram!

Appendix 1 - Sloka

In another version, it is spoken by Rama to Lakshmana:
अपि स्वर्णमयी लङ्का न मे लक्ष्मण रोचते |
जननी जन्मभूमिश्च स्वर्गादपि गरीयसी ||
Translation: "Lakshmana, even this golden Lanka does not appeal to me. Mother and motherland are superior even to heaven."

2006 & NOw

Lets Cut Time and Stitch It.....

I was listening to 'Unnalae Unnale' 

& i was reflecting my vibe from that time and now....

Angst me Vs Authentic Me

Angst ME

Me (NOW)

That reminds me to write a 'coming of age' novel.....

10 Things Money can never buy

 1. Values & Character

2. A good kind heart

3. A good charactered partner

4. well wishers and friends

5. Kind helpers

6. Loving food made with the hands of youre mother or wife

7. Respectful elegance

8. A responsible philatrophist at heart

9. Good society

10. Good air & water...

11. Good siblings and parents & good natured children.

Annamalai Anna - AN INSPIRATION - 'We The Leaders' Review - to be written

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=chrycPHiMGs

28 June 2026 - 

Despite the win of Tvk in Tn, Annamalai's grassroot developments have much value ...

More on this at a later date.....

Eyes of your heart.......

 

"To see life's journey through the eyes of your heart, is to know that all is happening exactly as it was meant to be...."

A Reflection ....

 

"Trust in the Promise of time, and you'll see that, the heavens hold wonderful surprises for us all...."

Time is certainly a pitiless healer. It heals all wounds, no matter how deep they are...

I can't belive as i reflect, I even managed to smile at that time. This picture is taken in 2017 -2018. when, we just returned to India, after nearly 22 years outside India. And those are December flowers....

The best thing to happen in my life has been my discovery of Odissi...

Thanks to Gayatri & the late Amarnath Ghosh...

Recently, a dream of my school dance teacher, Mrs Bhattacharya came, and the same day i found, my anklets which she gave me.

My very first dance was Rabindra Nritya for my school carnival in the winter. I still remember my dad's eyes when he was so happy to see me in the peacock blue saree of my mother.

I felt like Radhe dressed and adorned by my mother, to find my Krishna....

😇

Im in the right most corner......

We dance 'Ore Ghiribasi'....

 

Tears behind Strength......

 This was the cover of Culturama Magazine 2018 issue, which i kept with me....

It was apparently a painting of Rani Lakshmi Bhai, Jhansi Rani

The grief ......behind that strength and poise....

Poise and Stregth, yet with grief.......

In Search Of.......2017 to 2026

 The Beginning of My Quest.......

Seeking out >> Realising your gifts >> Healing >.> Sharing it with the world

Many years back, I dreamt of a pond, which is close to a beautiful grassland spreading many acres...

Im taking a dip in the pond and when I take a dip, Im almost teleported to a different place.....

It almost looks like a temple in Bali....

This dream resonated a lot with me...

Like I had lived a life like that, probably, eons ago....

The dream also had a home, with glass panels and Ramani is telling something to my father.....

when i was a very young child, I remember staring for hours together at the sky....

Just the void..., vast sky....in my balcony.....

I used to wonder if this is where we came from...

I protested a lot, when my father put grills in that space which sort of obstructed my view and imagination....

My neighbour had a beautiful garden.... which was so beautiful to behold....

I then remember another, dream, I dreamt of waterfalls...waterfalls like in mid air...

And my home is like mid air, the waterfalls is just outside my home....

Some of these dreams were astoundingly beautiful, and Ive wanted to paint them........

which then led me to self reflection on my own inner worlds.....

I have always been a seeker. mostly this is due to my mrigashirisha moon...

All this found much meaning when I met Radhika in 2022....

who gave meaning to much of what i was going through and a more tangible meaning to my inner world....

At Gaya when I visited in 2025, I spotted this advertisement for gold jewellery which read INDRIYA

Following which I received this mesage:

LOOKING AT THE WORLD IN A NEW WAY....

I ve always belived, the stregth of one's own consciousness can be cultivated by wisdom....

Change you Consciousness >> Change youre perspective >> Solutions present themselves

RAdhika has always told me, that my thoughts felt like soma ras....

I wondered what it always meant...

Only to realise that, when my heart awakens.... I can awaken in the beauty in those closest to me....

This soma ras....is felt and experienced as a state of equilibrium or peace with oneself....

When one heals, and the broken pieces are mended with gold, and we awaken out hearts,

We are able to share the gifts with the world, authentically....

Greeting Cards ----

 

I collect Vintage and contemporary Greeting cards, almost for every occasion and for everybody.....

I started this habit, when i heard a moving speech by a couple, who were about to go their own ways, but chanced upon a greeting card, given on their marriage day, which lay in their cupboard...

On reading the same, the kept their papers down....

After a distant relative of mine passed away a year back, I happened to chance a post card written by him, for my brother's sacred thread ceremony. 

Though, we couldnt be in touch, I felt painting, postcards and greeting cards leave an impression of a person's soul....

It resonates on a deep level...

Like letters or script has an energy of its own.....

As I write this, I endeavour to someday start or at least support a greeting card business...

ANd with time, I hope that people buy greeting cards.....

Love tastes like this.....

 

CARE.....inspiration to write Care....:)

 

Overcoming Writer's Block

I belive writing like any art, takes time, takes you to be vulnerable, you have to be daring to be raw in youre first attempt, and then have the courage to bring the intrinsic message that you wish to convey with subtlety and yet with an imagery that speaks to the soul of the reader.

Why did I take to writing?

I dont know still, like a every petal unfolds, im still asking that question....

I belive, some flowers we are never able to send. some letters we never manage to send, or they are too late,  when we write, we write to heal, untold stories of love, so that they incarnate for beautiful realities in this dimension....

Writing is a mediumship....

the writer like the scuplptor is an artist..... is in a 'flow' state, where words are passed through him, not from him....

i saw this theme in a bengali film....

I dont remember the name of the film. 

also, it takes oberservation, too, tiring observation, a beautiful heart to care for your characters, and a wonderful director's pen.... 

Intersting today is swati nakshatra - VISHWAKARMA. The celestial architect and master of arts whoose, Symbol is THE BRIGHT JEWEL which signifies brilliance, beauty and the inner light.

Im also remember of this inspirational film,which closely captured what I feel.....

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WsKyc8gJW1k&t=1049s

Notes of Happiness......Music of Happiness......24 June 2026 Reflections & Memories

 

In 2019, I dremt of peaock's dazzling in the skies...

Each of their feathers were bringht golden......

Like rays of lightning....

My father points to 3 huge peacocks in the sky....

A line kept playing in my mind as we travelled in our car today. 

Our bright blue ciaz which we choose to replair after a good 5 months.....

These lyrics played in my mind....

"வானத்தின் மீது மயிலாட கண்டேன், மயில் குயில் ஆச்சுதடி"

Very beautifully explained by Sikkil Gurucharan, "Im able to see the light and feel the light....." or rather experience Omkaram...

The sound of infinty..

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VXL7SY-BJOo

This beautiful raga is in Raga Mandu.....

I would associate this color to the deeper purple......again the crown chakra....its also the purple lotus ..... Nilothpalamba.... 

Just happily dancing feet in the sea shores......

Just in love with yourself, like you realise the universe is within you..... and you are both macrosm and microcosm....

and the smell...... A very deeper lavender.... which I happen to have, when i bought it in a puja store.....A rareee find......which when i happen to visit their official website, there doesnt seem to be lavender. 

When can you feel that kind of happiness, where you feel stretched between the land and sky.....

I just recollected some memories in my life,

Once I received a plumeria, and it somehow touched me and it is to that divinity amidst all that worldly stuff, which I was very touched.....

Another time, I rememeber me and my father going to the airport to receive my mom....I was waitig with expected happiness to see my mom....at that moment, i think it was 2012, I remember seeing a group of mute and deaf arab students. As they communicated with each other in sign language, I loved to see the passion in their eyes.....

It was poetic.....

Then, there was this moment, I wore my new watch to school in 9th standard. I wore a lemon grass cream to school. I was just praying so hard that the boy , i like notices it..... & darn, my heart bloomed in a 1000 roses when he did not just notice it... but shouted to the class in admiration, that im wearing one......

and then there was this, moment, when my mother's sister bought me a dreamy blue paper stand..... to reconcile with me.....

When I saw it, the gushing flow of imagination......

there are no paper stands like that anymore....

A scene from an old film popped out ...which had a similar one...only that mine was more beautiful

it was like a thousand lotuses blooming in my head......

Today, I received all those , green, violet themes in me.....

There is another song, that i remember, not very popular in teh same raga - 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UBUU2g55cDg

Ignorig the dance, just listening to the song...is happiness.......gushing happiness, like a child seeing a colorful fountain....

I love this song and its vibrancy... its like you meet youre loved one for the first time, or just 'how are you'.....

doesnt youre heart skip a beat... to know he or she feels the same way.....?

A peacock's meaning

Art Canvas - By Julie Leidel

What a eureka messgae, "SEEK OUT'' - "THE AWAKENING OF INSIGHT AND THE REFINEMENT OF INTEGRITY" ....

WHAT A EUREKA THOUGHT....

THIS MESSAGE reminds me of the archetype character of Henry McCord, the best in American television series, written by Barbara Hall...

if ever i have a someone in life, it should be like Henry Mccord. All the jupiterian traits......and that kind of integrity is something i look upto which heathy masclinity represents. Its a trait, i wish to deeply write on.....

A man who is inherently philosphical yet caring and knows to love the woman of his heart..... 

Especially when he cries for Elisabeth ..... i love that scene.....

But, in my own poetic journey, refinemnent of senses, like being burnt, was so needed to bring refinement of senses......but which is ultimately worth it.... like seeing the dazzling lights of Diwali.....

I once remember being to my cousin sister's home and spotting the colorful skies in a winter... Magical again....

another word on the hidden meanings of the peacock

The Star - Peacock - Interpretation - Themes of Neptune & Venus.  feeling inspired to explore your intuition and psychic impressions.  yet in the process of imagination to use a little discernment in absorbing what's around.....

The Golden Lining of My Heart - 24 February 2026

 

The Golden Lining Of My Heart 

I stretched open my arms

Opened my Heart

Cried my sensitivity to you....

I didnt hope to hear, or be loved...

Or :) May be I did...

But Why I smile :) is....

I said 'I LOVE YOU' 

Between the Lines...&

Had the COURAGE

to NOT take it to my grave.....

P.S. I also think I dodged a bullet, when I listen to LABOR by Paris Pauloma