Wednesday, November 12, 2025

The Ideal Husband

 12th November 2025

OK so, with Jupiter retrograde in Cancer... I was revisitng and doing some soul searching on my love life. 

Oops heart breaks ЁЯТФ ЁЯШв... yet, when I love, I love ... 

So as I was doing some revisiting and reevaluation... I decided how is the protagonist of my novel, going to be... the version I want for an 'IDEAL HUSBAND' .. 

So what came to my mind was.... 



Tada, the WISE, WELL READ, CARING AND WHO KNOWS HIS BOUNDARIES... The one and only Henry McCord. 

American TV series best creation has been Henry McCord very well scripted by Barbara Hall and Morgan Freeman.  



I love him for so many reasons, but they way he cried for Elisabeth in an episode... and how he cares for her.. are every woman's dream... and not to mention he knows to keep his boundaries with his ex. Be helpful but boundaries and is not afraid to admit and introspect when he may be wrong, be it personal or professional. 

Who wouldn't love him...

 

Second, the voice of Satyajit Ray and not to mention his artistic lens. 

This maybe too much to ask for. But Satyajit Ray his artistic lens, the way he looks at relationship, at women. And life as such .. nothing short of spiritually elevating and freeing... 

Breaking dogmas -- and we have Ray. 

 Third, when it comes to voice. I'm remembered of a scene from the Wedding Date. 



Dermot Mulrey almost heals the depths of her psyche. They say one must heal thy self.. tatsok.. but this was masterpiece in cinematic excellence and offcourse, romantic and not to mention deeply subtly sexual. Guess my moon in scorpio craves this... 

Ahem ahem, all stabilized by want for propriety with saturn there... 

Anyways moving... yes still there... 

Physically if I should picture the character, may be little like George Clooney with the sarcasm of Hugh Grant and maybe a charming smile (only used with discretion ЁЯШЙ) 

But ill leave the rest  to imagination. 

Next ill be writing about our female protagonist... 


Wednesday, October 8, 2025

Uttarabhadrapada Nakshatra

 Full Moon in Uttarabhadrada Nakshatra and Revati 





Today on the 6th October 2025 is the Sharad Purnima. The day is celebrated as Kojagiri Purnima and the Ras Leela is said to have taken place on this day. 


As I was pondering on the shakti of the Uttarabhadrapada nakshatra - Varshaayita Shakti — The Power to Bring Rain / Nourishment. 

I am reminded of the Chakora birds ЁЯРж which await the, moonlight ЁЯМЩ light as the source of nectar. I'm reminded of the lines from Priyae Charusheelae - "
sphurad adhara-s─лdhave tava vadana-candram─Б
rocayatu locana-cakoraс╣Г ||1||"

Where Krishna pleads with Radha, to see Radha's moon like face, as delightful like moonlight for the Chakora bird that waits patiently.... 

Interestingly, on this day the skies were absolutely so clear radiating the warm lights of the moon. 

Yet on the previous day on satabishek nakshatra is rained ЁЯМз  so heavily... I had interestingly gone outside and by the time I had come home, I was all drenched. 


Coming to Uttarabhadrada Nakshatra, I'm reminded of the formation of pearls. 


Formation of a pearl inside an oyster is thought to occur because of foreign material inside the body of the oyster. To save itself from the undesired material the mollusk coats the object with layers of nacre. It takes many years for a mollusk to produce a pearl of substantial size. The process through which the pearls are formed inside the body of the mollusk is very delicate, and a little disturbance at any stage of development of a pearl can influence its shape and luster. The finest pearl is that which has no foreign matter in its core. There is a common belief that when Swati Nakshatra rain comes to earth it produces pearl in pearl oysters. The mollusk is then said to open its mouth to receive the first raindrops. The pearls thus produced by the raindrops of Swati Nakshatra are the finest and have no foreign matter in them.
(Source - https://www.gemstoneuniverse.com/pearl-gemstone.html)

Though the formation of pearls as per the above source is linked mainly to Swati Nakshatra, Shravan and Pushya. I was pondering on the sign of Uttarabhadrapada. 






ЁЯМХ 1. Sharad Purnima – The Night of Divine Nectar 

According to the Bh─Бgavata Pur─Бс╣Зa (10th Skandha, chapters 29–33),
on this bright full moon night of the month of Ashwin,
Lord Kс╣Ыс╣гс╣Зa played His flute (Venu-n─Бda), calling the Gop─лs to the Yamun─Б’s sandy banks under the shining silver moonlight.

That was ┼Ъarad P┼лrс╣Зim─Б — the night when:

The Moon is full, the air is cool and pure, and the rasa (divine essence) pervades all creation.

It is said that on this night:

The Moon showers Amс╣Ыta — celestial nectar — symbolizing divine bliss (rasa).

Kс╣Ыс╣гс╣Зa, the embodiment of that bliss, manifests His infinite forms to dance with each Gop─л — one with every heart.

Thus, the R─Бsa Kr─лс╕Н─Б is not a physical dance, but a cosmic revelation of unity between the individual soul (Gop─л) and the Supreme Soul (Kс╣Ыс╣гс╣Зa).

ЁЯМ╕ 2. The Word “Rasa” – Its Double Meaning 

In Sanskrit, Rasa means:

Essence, nectar, flavor, emotion, or divine joy.

In Vedanta and Bhakti, it is the spiritual taste of love between God and devotee.

On Sharad Purnima:

The Moonlight (Chandrarasa) is the outer nectar — Amс╣Ыta raining from the heavens.

The R─Бsa dance is the inner nectar — Premarasa, the taste of divine love.

So, R─Бsa Kr─лс╕Н─Б = The Dance of Divine Rasa, when outer and inner nectar become one.
This is why the night is called “Amrita Varshini” — the night when nectar rains.




ЁЯРН 3. Link to Uttarabhadrapada Shakti 

Now, let’s connect this with Uttarabhadrapada Nakshatra’s Shakti:

Varshaayita Shakti — The Power to Bring Rain / Nourishment

During Sharad Purnima, the Moon literally “rains nectar” — Varsha of Amrita.
In a subtle sense, Ahirbudhnya, the serpent of the deep waters, represents the Kundalini energy rising — the union of ┼Ъakti and ┼Ъiva — just like Kс╣Ыс╣гс╣Зa and the Gop─лs uniting in bliss.

So the inner R─Бsa Kr─лс╕Н─Б happens in the deep heart (Hridaya Guha) — the inner ocean of Uttarabhadrapada.
It’s the yogic rasa, where the soul merges in the still joy of the Self.

Uttarabhadrapada Rasa Kr─лс╕Н─Б = Mystical Union
The “dance” happens inside, in meditation and devotion — the soul dances with the Divine.


In Tantra and Yoga, R─Бsa Kr─лс╕Н─Б is also symbolic of:





The union of ┼Ъiva (pure consciousness) and ┼Ъakti (creative energy) within the body.

The awakening of the Kundalini serpent (Ahirbudhnya) through love and surrender.

During Sharad Purnima, when the Moon is brightest:

The Ida and Pingala nadis (lunar and solar channels) balance.

The nectar of Soma descends from the Sahasr─Бra (crown chakra).

The inner consciousness experiences Rasa, the sweetness of union.

That is the inner R─Бsa L─лl─Б — the dance of energy and consciousness in perfect harmony.

ЁЯкФ 6. Essence of the Mystery 

ЁЯМХ Sharad Purnima = Rasa descending from the heavens
ЁЯТз Uttarabhadrapada = Rain from the ocean of consciousness
ЁЯТГ Ashwini = The dance of divine vitality in the heart

So:

When Sharad Purnima falls in Uttarabhadrapada, it represents inner union, the silent bliss of realization.

When it falls in Ashwini, it represents outer union, the playful dance of life and love.

Both express the same eternal truth:

“The soul and the Divine are never separate — they dance as one, within and without.”



Thursday, September 11, 2025

Vulnerabilty in his arms




Green and red saree

In the auto, 

I was in my own world, many thoughts 

Many insecurities

He held me so close... 

My heart never felt safer....

All my thoughts into oblivion. 


What does the Soul Long For?

 


How he loved me? 

Before I lose my memories to time
The safety in his arms
The warmth in his voice
His reassuring eyes... 
His embraces.. 
It healed all the sorrows of lifetimes  
But I had to let go... 
Happily for ever after.... 


In his Eyes


Tender endless ЁЯМЩ nights  ....

In his arms... 

Searching for myself 

In the recesses of his soul.. 

I found the beauty within, in his eyes...

In his heart.. 

Sunday, August 31, 2025

роЕрод்родிропாропроо் 4 - роЪுрои்родро░ройிрой் роиாроЯி роХுро▒ிрок்рокு - роЕроХрод்родிроп рооுройிро╡ро░் роЕро░ுро│் ро╡ாроХ்роХு

роЕрод்родிропாропроо் 4 - роЪுрои்родро░ройிрой் роиாроЯி роХுро▒ிрок்рокு  – роЕроХрод்родிроп рооுройிро╡ро░் роЕро░ுро│் ро╡ாроХ்роХு



рокрод்родு ро╡ро░ுроЯроЩ்роХро│ுроХ்роХு рооுрой்ройாро▓், роХро▓்ропாрогрод்родுроХ்роХு рокро░ிроХாро░роо் родேроЯி, роЕроо்рооா рооீройாроХ்ро╖ி, роЪுрои்родро░ройிрой் роиாроЯி роХுро▒ிрок்рокு родேроЯி роХроЮ்роЪройூро░ுроХ்роХு рокோроХிро▒ுрои்родாро│். 

роЕрои்род  роиாроЯி роХுро▒ிрок்рокிро▓் роЗро░ுрои்род роЪிро▓ ро╡ிро╖ропроЩ்роХро│் роЕрок்рокோாродு роЕро╡ройுроХ்роХு роЮாрокроХроо் ро╡рои்родройே.

**"роЪுрои்родро░ா…
роЙрой் ро╡ாро┤்роХ்роХைропிрой் роиீрог்роЯ рокாро▓ைро╡ройрод்родிро▓்
роТро░ுроиாро│் рооро┤ை рокெроп்ропுроо்.
роЕрои்род рооро┤ை —
‘ро╖்ропாрооро│ா’ роОрой்ро▒ு роЕро┤ைроХ்роХрок்рокроЯுроо்
роТро░ு роЙропிро░ிрой் рокாроЪрооாроХுроо்.

роЕро╡ро│் роЙро│்ро│роо் роЖро┤рооாрой роХроЯро▓்.
роЕродрой் роЕроЯிропிро▓், роХாропроЩ்роХро│ிрой் роХро▒்роХро│்
ропுроХроЩ்роХро│ாроХ рокроЯிрои்родுро│்ро│рой.

роЗро╡ро│் рооுрои்родைроп рокிро▒рок்рокிро▓்,

ро╡ெро│ி роиாроЯ்роЯிро▓ிро░ுрои்родு ро╡рои்родро╡ройாро▓் роиேроЪிроХ்роХрок்рокроЯ்роЯு,
роХро░ுро╡ுро▒்ро▒ роиிро▓ைропிро▓்
родройிрооைропிрой் роиிро┤ро▓ிро▓் ро╡ிроЯрок்рокроЯ்роЯாро│்.

роЕродрой் роЪுро╡роЯு роЗрой்ройுроо் роЕро╡ро│் роиெроЮ்роЪிро▓் роОро░ிроХிро▒родு.

роЖройாро▓் роЕро╡ро│் роиேроЪிроХ்роХுроо் рокோродு,
роЕродு роХрог்рогрой்-ро╖்ропாрооро│ைропிрой் роЖро┤்рои்род роЖройрои்родроо் рокோро▓
роЙрой் роЙропிро░ை рооுро┤ுро╡родுроо் роЖроЯ்роХொро│்ро│ுроо்.

роЕро╡ро│் роЬாродроХрод்родிро▓் —
роЪுроХ்ро░рой் роЙроЪ்роЪрод்родிро▓்;
рооிро░ுроХроЪீро░ிро╖роо் роироЯ்роЪрод்родிро░роо்.
роХுро░ு рокிрой்роЪெро▓ுрод்родுроо்  роиிро▓ைропிро▓்.

роЕро╡ро│ை роЕрогுроХுроо் рокோродு,
роЙрой் роЖроЪைроХро│ாро▓் роЕро▓்ро▓,
роЙрой் роЙропிро░ிрой் рокро░ிроЪுрод்родрод்родாро▓் родொроЯு.

роПройெройிро▓் роЕро╡ро│்,
роЙрой் роЖрой்рооாро╡ை рооீрог்роЯுроо் рокிро▒роХ்роХроЪ் роЪெроп்ропுроо்
роТро░ே рокெрог்."**

роЕрод்родிропாропроо் 3 – ро╖்ропாрооро│ாро╡ிрой் роЪிрои்родройைроХро│்

 



роЕрод்родிропாропроо் 3 – ро╖்ропாрооро│ாро╡ிрой் роЪிрои்родройைроХро│்

ро╖்ропாрооро│ா ро░ропிро▓ிро░ுрои்родு, рокроЪுрооைропாрой роХாроЯ்роЪிроХро│ைропே ро░роЪிрод்родுроХ் роХொрог்роЯிро░ுрои்родாро│். роЖройாро▓் роТро░ு роХро╡ро▓ை роЕро╡ро│ை ро╡ро░ுрои்родிропродு рокோро▓ роЗро░ுрои்родродு.

"ропாро░் роЗро╡рой், роПрой் роОрой்ройை роЕрок்рокроЯி рокாро░்роХ்роХро▒ாрой்? ро░ொроо்рок роЕроЪроЯு ро╡ро┤ிропாро░ாройே? роиாро▒்рокродு ро╡ропроЪுроХ்роХு рооேро▓் роЗро░ுрок்рокாрой் рокோро▓. роХро▓்ропாрогроо் роХூроЯ роЖропிро░ுроХ்роХோроо். родெро░ிропро▓?"

"роЕро╡рой் роОрой்ройை рокாро░்роХ்роХிро▒родே роОройроХ்роХு родெро░ிроХிро▒родு, роЖройாро▓் роЗродை роиாрой் роОрой்ройை роЕро▒ிропாрооро▓ா ро░роЪிроХ்роХро▒ேройா роЗро▓்ро▓ை роОрой்рой роиாрогроо் роЗродை ро╡ெро▒ுроХ்роХிро▒родா?" родெро░ிропро▓ை.

роЕрок்рокோродு, роЕроо்рооா, ро░ாроЬேро╕்ро╡ро░ி, "роХро▒்рокроХாроо்рокாро│் рокроЩ்роХுройி роЙрод்родிро░роо் родро░ிроЪройроо் роОро╡்ро╡ро│ро╡ு роЕро┤роХா роЗро░ுрои்родродு роЗро▓்ро▓ைроп, роЕроо்рокாро│் роЕро▓роЩ்роХாро░роо் ро░ொроо்рок роЕро┤роХா роЗро░ுрои்родродு". "ро╖்ропாрооро│ா, роиீ роиாродро╕்ро╡ро░ ро╡ிродுро╡ாрой், роХுроо்рокроХோрогрод்родிро▓ ро╡роЪிрок்рокாро░ே, роЕро╡ро░்родாрой்..."

The Ideal Husband

 12th November 2025 OK so, with Jupiter retrograde in Cancer... I was revisitng and doing some soul searching on my love life.  Oops heart b...