The Poetry Of YOur NAME ON MY LIPS 22.1.2026

 I'm looking deep into his eyes..

SToic as always...

Avoding the slightest deliverence of emotion

He stares into the curve in my lips

I call his name out

A portal.... opens him....throwing him back across life times.....

Arya.... isnt it.......?

Thats your name....

Isnt it magical to hear, your name, from the lips of the woman you once loved...............

And Somewhere in TIme..... 

The paralle lines are striked by a lightning making a curvature to meet.......

AND BEGINS THE HEALING......

Desire - Written on 8.12.2025 (31.12.2025 )

 

With braids of flowing hair 

From her shoulders to her breasts

Alike a vineyard of lush grapes

She stood in the moonlight with eyes.. 

Filled with the vine of desire 

& lips red, igniting raw passion 

Her hips arched achingly, inviting me to the garden of 🌸 bliss...

The quiver of her thighs & her deep breaths of passion

My heart skipped a million beats... 

The flame 🔥 was set ablaze by her intoxicated heated scents of passion

Our nights were written as poems,

Etched as kisses on her shoulder... 

& bites on her lower lip... 

The only that I mention with regard to propriety...

Faith

 Faith is born deep within your soul. 

It grows stronger through the light of love and the soft rain ☔  of  tears... 

The Female Protaginist of My Novel

 21 November 2025

First when I endeavored to write this novel, I was inspired by Flute Ramani'z Marugelara in a train taken from Trichy to Chennai. 

Many years back, again when travelling to trichy. I chanced upon a woman somewhat in her mid 30s. She wore a sort of Bengali Kantha chocolate color printed saree. Slender profile and thin skin.. 

I imagined she wore the the namam on her forehead.. slender Tikka on her forehead.. 

Had beautiful thick black plaited hair. A very beautiful side profile. 

What was her aura like. 

Initially I imagined a very serious and reserved aura. 

I later changed my plans. I wanted a sort of lively demeanor. With a Wheatiesh to.bown skin tone and eyes that speak. I was reminded of Nandita Das. 

 But with regard to the aura of the person, I still wanted a very deep, intrinsic poetic yet with the times sort of an aura. 

I was reminded of the champa flower. Something like that. 

Anyway this is what my female protagonist looks like. 

Fine what are her values. 

I loved the idea of poetic grace and a subtle imagination. In her days of solitude, she plays the tambura. I imagined 'Dance of the wind' Kitu Gidwani in offwhites. And ivory. 

Mercurial instinct like that of Elisabeth in Pridd and Prejeduice. I tried to incorporate some of Kiera knightley in some instances. But nothing occurs per se at the moment. 

What about care, concern, regard for the others well being. 

I was reminded of a character from -- Wild Praire rose'. There is care concern but also the need to lively in trying times. 

What are her hobbies.. 

This is what I had in mind. But I wanted to add 2 elements she works a s a trainer for autistic children and also volunteers for women with trauma and abuse. Something on these lines. 

How was she in a relationship? 

Now this was tuff.. 

I wanted to write poetic romance where she initiates,  I want this so deeply as it frees some aspects of my soul. 

How she loves to talk over the phone , her deep voice. Her silences, yet when she wants to have a laugh she has a very good time. 

I'll admit I want her to convey more subtle sexuality as opposed to what I seek to wrote for the male protagonist. 

I wish to do this with some undertones of Lucy Gordon's style. Let me think I've not yet decided. Or rather I d just go with the flow. 

The Ideal Husband - The Protagonist For My Novel

 12th November 2025

OK so, with Jupiter retrograde in Cancer... I was revisitng and doing some soul searching on my love life. 

Oops heart breaks 💔 😢... yet, when I love, I love ... 

So as I was doing some revisiting and reevaluation... I decided how is the protagonist of my novel, going to be... the version I want for an 'IDEAL HUSBAND' .. 

So what came to my mind was.... 

 The WISE, WELL READ, CARING AND THE MAN WHO KNOWS TO ENFORCE HIS BOUNDARIES... The one and only Henry McCord. 

American TV series best creation has been Henry McCord very well scripted by Barbara Hall and Morgan Freeman.  

I love him for so many reasons, but they way he cried for Elisabeth in an episode... and how he cares for her.. are every woman's dream... and not to mention he knows to keep his boundaries when at a time he helps his ex. Be helpful but boundaries and is not afraid to admit and introspect when he may be wrong, be it personal or professional. 

Who wouldn't love him...

 

Second, the voice of Satyajit Ray and not to mention his artistic lens. 

This maybe too much to ask for. But Satyajit Ray his artistic lens, the way he looks at relationship, at women. And life as such .. nothing short of spiritually elevating and freeing... 

Breaking dogmas -- and we have Ray. 

 Third, when it comes to voice. I'm remembered of a scene from the Wedding Date. 

Dermot Mulrey almost heals the depths of her psyche. They say one must heal thy self.. tatsok.. but this was masterpiece in cinematic excellence and offcourse, romantic and not to mention deeply subtly sexual. Guess my moon in scorpio craves this... 

Yet, all stabilized by want for propriety with saturn there... 

Anyways moving on.... yes still there... 

Physically if I should picture the character, may be little like George Clooney with the sarcasm of Hugh Grant and maybe a charming smile (only used with discretion 😉) 

But ill leave the rest  to imagination. 

Next ill be writing about our female protagonist... 

Uttarabhadrapada Nakshatra

 Full Moon in Uttarabhadrada Nakshatra and Revati 

Today on the 6th October 2025 is the Sharad Purnima. The day is celebrated as Kojagiri Purnima and the Ras Leela is said to have taken place on this day. 

As I was pondering on the shakti of the Uttarabhadrapada nakshatra - Varshaayita Shakti — The Power to Bring Rain / Nourishment. 

I am reminded of the Chakora birds 🐦 which await the, moonlight 🌙 light as the source of nectar. I'm reminded of the lines from Priyae Charusheelae - "

sphurad adhara-sīdhave tava vadana-candramā

rocayatu locana-cakoraṃ ||1||"

Where Krishna pleads with Radha, to see Radha's moon like face, as delightful like moonlight for the Chakora bird that waits patiently.... 

Interestingly, on this day the skies were absolutely so clear radiating the warm lights of the moon. 

Yet on the previous day on satabishek nakshatra is rained 🌧  so heavily... I had interestingly gone outside and by the time I had come home, I was all drenched. 

Coming to Uttarabhadrada Nakshatra, I'm reminded of the formation of pearls. 

Formation of a pearl inside an oyster is thought to occur because of foreign material inside the body of the oyster. To save itself from the undesired material the mollusk coats the object with layers of nacre. It takes many years for a mollusk to produce a pearl of substantial size. The process through which the pearls are formed inside the body of the mollusk is very delicate, and a little disturbance at any stage of development of a pearl can influence its shape and luster. The finest pearl is that which has no foreign matter in its core. There is a common belief that when Swati Nakshatra rain comes to earth it produces pearl in pearl oysters. The mollusk is then said to open its mouth to receive the first raindrops. The pearls thus produced by the raindrops of Swati Nakshatra are the finest and have no foreign matter in them.

(Source - https://www.gemstoneuniverse.com/pearl-gemstone.html)

Though the formation of pearls as per the above source is linked mainly to Swati Nakshatra, Shravan and Pushya. I was pondering on the sign of Uttarabhadrapada. 

🌕 1. Sharad Purnima – The Night of Divine Nectar 

According to the Bhāgavata Purāṇa (10th Skandha, chapters 29–33),

on this bright full moon night of the month of Ashwin,

Lord Kṛṣṇa played His flute (Venu-nāda), calling the Gopīs to the Yamunā’s sandy banks under the shining silver moonlight.

That was Śarad Pūrṇimā — the night when:

The Moon is full, the air is cool and pure, and the rasa (divine essence) pervades all creation.

It is said that on this night:

The Moon showers Amṛta — celestial nectar — symbolizing divine bliss (rasa).

Kṛṣṇa, the embodiment of that bliss, manifests His infinite forms to dance with each Gopī — one with every heart.

Thus, the Rāsa Krīḍā is not a physical dance, but a cosmic revelation of unity between the individual soul (Gopī) and the Supreme Soul (Kṛṣṇa).

🌸 2. The Word “Rasa” – Its Double Meaning 

In Sanskrit, Rasa means:

Essence, nectar, flavor, emotion, or divine joy.

In Vedanta and Bhakti, it is the spiritual taste of love between God and devotee.

On Sharad Purnima:

The Moonlight (Chandrarasa) is the outer nectar — Amṛta raining from the heavens.

The Rāsa dance is the inner nectar — Premarasa, the taste of divine love.

So, Rāsa Krīḍā = The Dance of Divine Rasa, when outer and inner nectar become one.

This is why the night is called “Amrita Varshini” — the night when nectar rains.

🐍 3. Link to Uttarabhadrapada Shakti 

Now, let’s connect this with Uttarabhadrapada Nakshatra’s Shakti:

Varshaayita Shakti — The Power to Bring Rain / Nourishment

During Sharad Purnima, the Moon literally “rains nectar” — Varsha of Amrita.

In a subtle sense, Ahirbudhnya, the serpent of the deep waters, represents the Kundalini energy rising — the union of Śakti and Śiva — just like Kṛṣṇa and the Gopīs uniting in bliss.

So the inner Rāsa Krīḍā happens in the deep heart (Hridaya Guha) — the inner ocean of Uttarabhadrapada.

It’s the yogic rasa, where the soul merges in the still joy of the Self.

Uttarabhadrapada Rasa Krīḍā = Mystical Union

The “dance” happens inside, in meditation and devotion — the soul dances with the Divine.

In Tantra and Yoga, Rāsa Krīḍā is also symbolic of:

The union of Śiva (pure consciousness) and Śakti (creative energy) within the body.

The awakening of the Kundalini serpent (Ahirbudhnya) through love and surrender.

During Sharad Purnima, when the Moon is brightest:

The Ida and Pingala nadis (lunar and solar channels) balance.

The nectar of Soma descends from the Sahasrāra (crown chakra).

The inner consciousness experiences Rasa, the sweetness of union.

That is the inner Rāsa Līlā — the dance of energy and consciousness in perfect harmony.

🪔 6. Essence of the Mystery 

🌕 Sharad Purnima = Rasa descending from the heavens

💧 Uttarabhadrapada = Rain from the ocean of consciousness

💃 Ashwini = The dance of divine vitality in the heart

So:

When Sharad Purnima falls in Uttarabhadrapada, it represents inner union, the silent bliss of realization.

When it falls in Ashwini, it represents outer union, the playful dance of life and love.

Both express the same eternal truth:

“The soul and the Divine are never separate — they dance as one, within and without.”

Vulnerabilty in his arms

Green and red saree

In the auto, 

I was in my own world, many thoughts 

Many insecurities

He held me so close... 

My heart never felt safer....

All my thoughts into oblivion.